Day 3 of water fast

Man this day was the most challenging of all. The baby woke up to nurse more often as I noticed my milk supply has gone down throughout the day and she has to eat more often. I spent the day praying, reading my book and working. Till around 3:30 when I began making dinner. I had already made the enchiladas but i needed to put them in the oven. The smell was overwhelming. But during dinner i went upstairs to take a shower and "get away". We then went to church.

It's Wednesday night so we work with the youth. I work the cafe and am usually pretty bored before service so normally I eat snacks. My favorite snack is the little Debbie nutty bars we sell in the café...... Omgoodness I could hardly stand it tonight. But I persevered. Later on though I had my first off plan "cheat" as I allowed myself to have a Sprite. Well... It's a clear liquid right? I believe that was my first mistake.

I left there and took my nephew home (he comes to church with us Wednesday nights) and I thought I would be hanging out a little while talking to my sister but conversation seemed forced which is not usual for us. Probably cause I was trying to take my mind off food. I decided it was time to go. Once home I had this overwhelming urge to break the fast and eat those enchiladas. I kept telling myself that "I HAVE SACRIFICED" and "I had done great on my first water fast considering." and "I could always start back tomorrow". I spent the next hour reading the book, praying, working and finally deciding to cave.

I went and made myself a bowl of those enchiladas. But With all that steamy cheesy goodness it did not satisfy. A little while later I thought a fresh orange might be satisfying but it wasn't... i won't embarrass myself further by telling the rest of what I binged on but I will tell you NOT ONE THING SATISFIED.

I am heading to bed now feeling terrible. I made it exactly 3 days on this water fast and apparently learned nothing other than I STILL AM A SLAVE TO FOOD! 😭 Lord help me.

The saying "tomorrow's another day" fits nicely here. Starting at 12:30am I am officially on another fast. I will make it to 7 days and then 21. Here's to starting over from day 1 😞 I think I'm going to be sick now😨